how to disappear completely

i need to go for a ride out to somewhere rural and take a nap.

One year anniversary

I've been in Texas for one year. I'm writing this on an iPod touch. This year has been chock full o changes!

bi-polar, ya'll

i have gone through moments of complete joy to moments of feeling unattached and depressed in the past 48 hours. Should I blame the caffeine? I wish that this past weekend was my life and the week days didn't exist.

My friend told me he hadn't had a nightmare in 8 months or more. I can't believe that. I'm pretty sure I have 2 or 3 nightmares, or at least stress dreams, per week. Sometimes, I feel like it's every night. Is this a problem and/or unusual?

I have a temporary roommate and it's great. Really great to talk to verbally talk to someone about everything.

I don't want to take anything seriously, but I can't not take everything seriously.

I'm looking forward to my vacation next week like no other.

too much whine.

when i was young, i was a boy

may 15th, 2009:

late sleeping.
cereal eating.
late to work(ing).
staff meeting.
dvd/vhs fixing.
conference calling.
hard laughing.
pasta eating.
people talking.
employment counseling.
check looking.
check signing.
job applying.
coffee drinking.
cell phone calling.
office locking.
car driving.
clothes changing.
cd burning.
phone calling.
chuck e. cheesing.
client seeing.
mario karting.
house driving.
chip eating.
beer drinking.
good talking.
hard laughing.
fire breathing.
s'more eating.
mind thinking.
friend drunking.
disco driving.
home seeking.
late night blogging.

late to bed, early to rise.

quickly, before i go to bed

how did i get to where i am? where will i be in one year?

every morning, i wish i had gone to bed sooner. i often think about the idea of paying someone so i can sleep in. most mornings, when i have to wake up to an alarm, i wish i could pay someone off to get up at the time and what i have to do until i naturally wake up and after i take a leisurely shower. though i usually don't get up until i've hit snooze for a good 1 hour.

dear morning seth,

i'm sorry i stayed up so late. please forgive me. i promise i'll go to bed earlier tomorrow night. or hey, maybe i'll even take a nap after work. will that make you feel better?

always,

night seth

5 months?

i feel as though i'm losing brain space. i walked back to my apartment from the grocery store with a friend last night and he brought up that he believes the human mind is finite. the more time passes, the more i agree. i also believe i have come to the realization that i won't be as academically smart as i would like to be--that it just might not be possible. in a related story, i've become increasingly apathetic toward almost everything.

but it will pass as it always does.

i would have lied on my bed drifting in and out of sleep if it had not been for that same friend texting me to see if i wanted to go watch a movie. i'm glad i did. i'm glad i force myself into social situations more nowadays. people are just people, right?

don't take everything so seriously. live and live well.

dear blogosphere, it's great to be back.

No Sleep Til Austin

I had an interview with Refugee Services of Texas on Thursday.
Offered the job on Friday.
Spending the week eating food and talking to people that are my family.
Moving to Austin sometime this week.
Starting work on December 1st.
Exhale.